that cowboy in the window

Ryan Field New Backlist Releases

Ryan Field New Backlist Releases

I hate writing blog post titles like the one above, but if you know blogging it’s important to title and tag a post a certain way for search engines. I would rather have just titled this post “New Releases” and left it at that.

And here they are, as I’m getting the notifications from Amazon daily:

A Young Widow’s Promise link

This is a pg rated erotic romance with a straight female main character and a gay sub-plot. It’s a novella and I think it’s about 30,000 words. It’s also a civil war historical and the setting of the novel is something I researched in detail. It all takes place on the New Jersey/Delaware border, where at one time there was a prison that held confederate prisoners of war. Felecia, the main character, falls in love with a confederate solider after losing her husband and sons in the war. She’s also taken it upon herself to dig graves on the front lawn of her home for as many dead confederate prisoners of war as possible. I’m adding the blurb to this one because it’s very different from anything I’ve done before.

Blurb

Felecia Roundtree is thirty-seven years old, she’s already lost her husband in battle, and prays each morning her two young sons live to see another day. With her own two hands, she’s turned the front of her property at remote Locust Point, NJ, into a burial ground for unknown Confederate prisoners of war, hoping someone will return a kind gesture to her own loved ones. Then one morning in August, just after she has a vision of her dead husband, three Confederate prisoners of war turn up at her doorstep begging for mercy. One is near death; the other two aren’t much better. Though she’s reluctant at first to help the enemy, she offers them food and shelter, and then eventually begins the romance of her lifetime with a young old Confederate named Calvin. When she learns a deep dark secret about the other two Confederates, she’s not sure what to think. Felecia has no idea she’s even falling in love. Nor does she realize she’s preserving an important part of American History. But she’s true to her promise every step of the way.

Billabong Bang link A short erotic romance with a multi-race character.

Another Regular Bud link A short erotic romance sequel to A Regular Bud.

Babycakes link A short erotic romance set in Australia in the Daintree Forest that was once published by Alyson Books.

Bury It, Officer link A short erotic romance with a hint of light BDSM and shoe fetish. Also in a previously pubbed anthology edited by Cleis Press and Rachel Kramer Bussel.

Strawberries and Cream at the Plaza link This is a pg rated gay romance without a lot of sex. It was originally pubbed in a different version about ten years ago in an Alyson Books anthology. It is in no way associated with a m/m romance titled Strawberries and Cream. As you can see, this story was released a while ago, long before Strawberries and Cream was even a thought.

That Cowboy in the Window link  A short erotic romance with a gender bending twist, about a transgender who can actually pass as a woman without a single issue. The ending is happy, but not in the way most might expect.

That’s it for now. All of the above titles are on Amazon for .99, and will be for at least the next three months.

"That Cowboy in the Window," And Letter From a Transgender

My newest release, “That Cowboy in the Window,” was inspired by a note I received from a reader who happens to be a transgender. I don’t talk about these things often because I know how important discretion is to my readers and I want them to know they can trust me. And I do have permission to reprint part of the note I received from this reader. I’m stating that up front because if I didn’t have permission I wouldn’t be printing it here.

Hi Ryan,

I’ve been passing as a transgender in secret all of my life. I never had enough money to have any surgery or get any counseling but I’ve always been okay with myself and never had to work hard to pass. As I write this I’m finishing your book American Star II and I wanted to thank you for writing about a transgender character the way you did. It has always been my goal to live my life full time as a woman instead of as a man so I won’t have to sneak around anymore. That’s not as easy as it sounds and I’m still working on it. Reading books like this gives me hope that I can do it in time.

The note goes on to explain more about her interests in having surgery and how she plans to live her life full time as a woman. She’s in her early thirties and passes as a woman at night. She’s basically living two lives and she’s getting tired of it. When I opened that e-mail it surprised me because I wasn’t trying to make any strong political or social statements with American Star II I always saw that book more as a satire than something serious. And yet ASII inspired someone enough to write me about it.

And this reader’s note inspired me to write about a transgender character caught between two lives. In my next release with Loveyoudivine.com, “That Cowboy in the Window,” I get into the “T” part of LGBT in ways I don’t do often. It’s not a love story between two people and I’d like to thank Louveyoudivine.com for giving me the chance to write stories like this that aren’t ordinary. It’s a love story about someone learning to love herself with all her flaws and quirks. It’s about having the courage to stand up and be who you are. And it’s about taking the time to listen to that little voice deep down inside you while you’re in the middle of your own life story.

I get notes like this all the time from people. I can’t say these people are part of the LGBT community because in many cases they are still on the outside looking in, so to speak. But I value these e-mails and I never take them for granted. I’ve never been a fan of beta readers, and the only people I trust enough to read my work before it gets published are my editors. I can’t even imagine a beta reading inspiring me with comments or opinions about my work. But I am a huge fan of readers who contact me with their own personal stories. That’s the only inspiration I’ll ever need.

Here’s the blurb for “That Cowboy in the Window.” And here’s a link for ARe. You can get it at all retail web sites where e-books are sold, including the publisher’s web site, Loveyoudivine.com.

A quirky queer ritual that leads to an amazing self-discovery.

This is the unusual gender-bending story of Paige living as a woman by night and a harmless effeminate man named Paul by day. Though her best friend knows the truth about her, no one else does, especially not the handsome young straight guy in the cowboy hat who lives in the apartment across the alley and likes to watch her undress every night. She’s always been able to pass without working too hard, but never felt complete as a woman. But when she finally decides to get the exaggerated breast augmentation she’s always dreamed about, her life changes in ways she never expected. Although it’s not the kind of happily-ever-after ending found in most romance stories, it is the kind of emotional happy ending in modern romance that begins on the inside where it counts the most.

Cover Preview: That Cowboy in the Window…Gender-Bending Themes


Here’s the cover for my new Loveyoudivine.com release, THAT COWBOY IN THE WINDOW.

If you’re looking for romance with a woman in a long red gown on the cover, this might not be the book for you. This is more about the personal journey of an individual who has always known what he wanted but wasn’t quite sure how to get it. It’s funny at times; it stings at other times. It’s LGBT fiction, not m/m romance and I wouldn’t want anyone to get the wrong impression about it.

There is a cowboy and there is a dark side to him. But I think there’s a happy ending, in spite of the fact that it’s not the traditional happily-ever-after. In fact, we should all be this lucky in our lives to come to this conclusion.

I’ll post more when it’s released.

As for the cover, I think Dawne Dominique nailed this one!

That Cowboy in the Window…New Announcement Coming Soon

Before I get into a new short I’ve been working on for Loveyoudivine.com, I’d like to drop a hint that there’s going to be something new over at loveyoudivine.com very soon. I can’t talk about it now. But I will on August 3rd. With all the drama slithering around the Internet this month, it’s nice to see something positive for a change.

I don’t have an image yet for my upcoming release, THAT COWBOY IN THE WINDOW, but I do have a blurb and here’s a short excerpt. It’s something I don’t normally write about…gender-bending…but I’ve been reading John Iriving’s newest novel, which not only gets into gender-bending but also bi-sexuality and I’ve been taking it all in, so to speak. It’s interesting to see a well known mainstream novelist like Irving get into a theme like this. This story of mine, however, wasn’t influenced by Irving.

I wrote my story story a long time ago and never did anything with it. The original title was “Bananas Foster,” which I decided to change with this release because it sounded too contrived.

Burb:

This is the unusual gender-bending story of Paige living as a woman by night and a harmless effeminate man named Paul by day. Though her best friend knows the truth about her, no one else does, especially not the handsome young straight guy in the cowboy hat who lives in the apartment across the alley and likes to watch her undress every night. She’s always been able to pass without working too hard, but never felt complete as a woman. But when she finally decides to get the exaggerated breast augmentation she’s always dreamed about, her life changes in ways she never expected. Although it’s not the kind of happily-ever-after ending found in most romance stories, it is the kind of emotional happy ending in modern romance that begins on the inside where it counts the most.

Excerpt:

Before Paige found a really good set of fake boobs, people assumed she was just another flat-chested lanky woman with a nice smile. There were no obvious telltale signs. Even her hands had a small, delicate appeal most real women would have killed for.

She kept her hair long and blonde and parted dead center. It fell perfectly straight and stopped at the middle of her back. Her small frame never gave her away. Although average in height…some would have considered slightly tall for a girl…she practically lived on lettuce and carrots to maintain a small waist. But she compensated for this one minor drawback in height with small features, large blue eyes with long natural lashes, and a perfect button nose. She’d never needed hormones or surgical procedures to cross-dress and pass as a real woman; just lipstick and earrings and a cute short dress did wonders.

As a child, strangers would say isn’t she a pretty little girl…such long, silky eyelashes and glorious high cheekbones, and the sweetest smile they’d ever seen. When corrected by her frowning father, they would gasp and assume apologetic expressions with their palms pressed to their open mouths. You couldn’t blame them, they would say. It wasn’t their fault she was such a pretty little boy.

If nothing else, she deserved credit for one thing: she knew she looked like a little girl and she liked it when they thought she was a pretty one. Most little boys would have cringed and either slipped into a shell of embarrassment or a defensive rage. But not Paige…or Paul as she was called back then. Sometimes, if her father wasn’t around when they thought she was a girl, she’d even dip, curtsy, and thank them herself.

Once, when her father caught her smiling too much at a handsome young waiter in a restaurant he took her to a barber shop the next day and had all her blond baby curls cut off. It wasn’t the waiter’s fault. He just smiled back and said, “What a cute little girl. She’s gonna break a lot of hearts someday.” It wasn’t really her fault either. The waiter was cute and she would have loved to sit on his lap and stare at his beautiful lips. She was only about five years old and too young to realize there was something wrong with this.

Her hair finally grew back and she refused to ever go to that barber shop again. She even told her father she’d stab him in his sleep if he ever shaved her head again. She was lucky enough to have had a mother who stood by her side, which eventually left her father turning his back in a hapless daze, as if he realized he may as well finally face facts. Deep down, he must have known that his little Paul would never play baseball, football, or basketball. How could he not know this when on her seventh birthday her grandmother asked her, “What would you like to be when you grow up?” and she replied, “A pretty girl with lots of boyfriends.”

Her grandmother gasped and looked up at the ceiling. Her father dropped his spoon on the floor and blinked. He mother changed the subject and cut the birthday cake. Though her mother didn’t encourage her, she didn’t discourage her either.